Friday, October 26, 2007
Searching for?
Long time nv blog liao... Kena infection on wed and went to hospital by Air force de ambulance again.
Ha..oso time to rest, too stress fr work. I can't concentrate long at work de, U see..
Hav been searching and searching...Maybe i did not search at all.
I realized tat i go wif things happening..so, things come then i handle.
Man...no wonder i keep getting myself stuck. I need to plan man, plan for wat i need.
Thk's for giving me chances...
Posted at6:13 PM
Friday, October 19, 2007
invisible me...
I sometimes really feel so lonely in camp.. All the things just go against me and testing my patient...My so-call " upper study" on leave, everytime hav work tat he nv settle properly...then i hav to burden all the wrong.Like tis still nvm...a new guy just came for 2 weeks. 2day where my "upper study" not in, Msg Ang actually treat me as invisible..Everything ask the new guy, then i like the person who do all the things behind the backstage.Ya..felt like shouting out.. Went to see CL's posts fr 0203 and her blog again and drop a few tears....lol...Somemore having stupid wheather... I keep leaking water all over (for those kno), then every place de air-con oso cold until donno wat.Ya...sian diao, and stress...
Posted at12:59 PM
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Nice photo
Nice photo? I really love tis photo man....!!! Haha.. :P
Posted at12:06 PM
Life exist because there's a God.
So true and amazing, which no one can deny....
Posted at11:27 AM
Friday, October 05, 2007
When there's no sometime..
WORSE IS...when i just don wan anything.Somehow reminded of "everyone need God" tis songs, its always true and somehow U R not getting anywhere without God....without church life.
Posted at6:00 PM
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Sometimes...
Sometimes i just wan to be aloneSometimes i just need someone beside meSometimes i just wanna crySometimes i just donno wat to saySometimes i just don wanna chooseSometimes i just wan some peaceSometimes i just wan to relaxSometimes i just hope someone would careSometimes i just don wanna moveSometimes i just don wan to acceptSometimes i just wan to shoutSometimes i just wan to sleepSometimes i just wan to play.......But without God, we R still nth. Our life is a gift fr God, wat we use tis life to do is a gift for God.
Posted at6:47 PM
Real don like Army la.. So stupid and hav so many rules. Even the packing of field pack oso like shit requirement not pratical at all la!! Even all the Sirs said tat..The leave matter no choice, hav to take two days leave.. Sir and platoon sgt (kingston) tried to fight off for me, but Msg Ang stand is to clear leave first..then when no leave, next time got important things then see how.The way sgt talk to me just nw isnt pratical la..his way of talking bah.. Saying no off for personal matters....he nv do tat oso......asked me wat i do after work......wat Army is 24 hr.....wearing green uniform.......he even do Army stuffs when not working........etc. The way he talked real made me mad........maybe their rank big la.....so i even feel like crying. But thk God tat i did not gone crazy for these few days, just struggling and tolerating.But after tat i realised tat its the Army i don like....no choice.....i cant blame on these ppl, and they R already trying to help me la. Sgt even asked me to apply 2 days oversea leave for church camp so as to clear leave first.Msg Ang actually asked me sir and sgt why i poor still wan/can go oversea.....stupid rite? Anyway, sat hav recall for my camp man.... Haven recall the timing already spreading, HaHa! Should be 9am la.. Still packing for my field pack......then these 2 days leave lei.....maybe fri late afternoon when they leave then i come back to pack bah..Nw going find MaxX to treat him..HaHa..
Posted at5:53 PM
Was real struggling de.. U kno whenever doing something serious/ important i will be very nervous, so i kept telling myself to calm down and do it slow and steady. Its only once during these 2 yrs la..then come to tis stage, i conviced myself to give a it a try.
2day was real scary.. I set my hp clock to wake up at 5am and my alarm to wake up arnd 6.25am, end up i woke up anrd 7am..ok la.. Just tat all my bunk mates don like me to set alarms, they say they will auto wake up at 7am and then they will wake me up....
Probs is every morning de breakfast only until 7.30am then still need to wash up lei..somtimes still hav to bath lei(extra things happen)..then 3-4 days Msg Ang will be at food hse eating breakfast and chatting there lei..
So i bo bian, every morning hav to go breakfast early..got once kena scolding liao. Sometimes i jam la. All bunk mates don liike alarms, but hav to wake up early lei.. 2day was ok, HaHa! :P My alarms didnt wake them up lei.. We all deep sleepers la..lol..
2day de test everything was quite fine lei..just tat missed out a few steps...wearing full suit wif mask and all tat sweats like donno wat la..lol.. Going into the charmber is the worse.
We hav to do 5BX inside there..then do drill. When doing drill i still too nervous then first step do wrong. The drill is like U hav to change the mask de carnister (breathing kit for mask) in the charmber wif smokes, the smokes is very strong like big packets of wasabi la..its super spicy and makes U weak..So hav to hold ur breath when changing the carmister.
Putting the carnister back is the worse..if nv turn properly, U will sure spend time turning then U will hav no breath. Kno wat? Everything was fine cos i kept reminding myself to slow and steady, BUT...my mask is not tight la!! Then i got to breath some of the smokes air.
After the drill, is the last stage. Hav to take of mask and shout IC no and name then can go out of the chamber la!! Many people CMI man.. I was ok, HeHe.. :P After come out whole body eps face & eyes will feel super spicy and hot for a while.So happy la! Long time nv feel so SUCCESSFUL, ya..haha!
After everything then i kno actually i hav a missed call fr TTSH..i called back, they actually requested me to reach early 2mor la. Arnd 1.30pm, then hav to arrage wif SWAMI tat they must reach there arnd 1.40pm lorx..
Thk's for prayers and encouragements.. :)
Posted at12:24 PM
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
Thurs and fri on leave.
I told Sir abt thurs going TTSH and fri going to the lawyer appt wif my mum..he actually agreed to give me off.Fri actually i got dental appt lei..my tooth la, one ok the other one need root canal again.I struggling and finally i go tel Msg Ang abt thurs and fri. I hav to let him sign off pass, then let him kno is a kind of respect mah..BUT..kno wat? His reply was go take leave, i don hav time to entertain U. I was like :) become :( .I left only 4 days of leave lei..and tat's for church camp la! Off and leave is real different la.. Off is given one.Give him respect, he give me tis reply..SHIT! Anyway my platoon sgt and sir suggested 1 day off and 1 day leave, better than nth la..Thurs one is be4 2 must reach TTSH, hopefully SWAMI de ambulance reach early oso..else, cock up again.Then fri actually got dental appt 1045 at Tengah Air base, think hav to change le..oh..my tooth.. The stupid lawyer one is 12pm at Legal Aid, Tangjong Pager there.Real not not not enough sleep..my eyes are like been bash up la, heavy and keep wanting to shut down.K, hav to go le..hopefully can wake up on time for the test.
Posted at10:23 PM
Man..just came to office on mon then kno i hav to go for biology/chemical defence training..then whole day sleeping la.
Totally CMI la.. Missed the whole theory and videos. 2day hav the pratical lessons..so many procedure man.
Need to hold breath...change mask..etc Then still got test and got timing de..
2mor is the test, actually thinking of giving up and find excuses..but suan le..just give it a try.
Posted at9:34 PM
Though sun i did not go church, the stupid and noisy family came again.
Received a letter fr legal aid, saying wan to meet my mum to furnish my dad docs. Ya, oh man..Thurs hav to go TTSH settle things, nw come another one.
I think the person got it wrongly man.. Tat time he called me, i told him i just on the way to get the medical report..And nw he wan to meet my mum for?? Stupid la.. Thurs just only wan to arrange my dad to TTSH for the medical report stuff la.
Kno wat? The moment i reaches hm on fri, my mum hav been asking me to photocopy the letter for her to let officer see and take leave.
Fri to sun hav been too many things la..i forget abt it. End up i told her no need to take leave first, i will try to call the person up.
She shouted tat i taking my time to settle my dad's stuffs.. Wa Lao! Come' no la.. i told her maybe tat person got it wrong, so if i call maybe we no need to go lei..?
She shouted and asked me why i settle things until like tat and keep taking my time to settle..the feelings was like WA LAO LA! End up she throw the letter on the floor and say she don wan to go liao.
I was like nvm.. But my low understanding 2nd bro ask me loudly why i don wan to make the appt other day and other time.
I told him all the appts is not i make one la..is the lawyer..the hospital.. And i hav to go and settle the things, he only sit down there and add fire.
Hai.. End up, he suddenly woke up. He kept shouting and say i Hao Lian..influenced by all my family members..he say he told me be4 not to shout at nite, but i told him who is the one shouting man..i did not shout la.
After tat became he wan to fight wif me and my mum, he say he hate us.. My mum told him if he dare to hit her she will call police, so end up he throw packets of noodles at my face.
Sun nite, again i slept at 3 plus..hai..
Posted at7:48 PM
Monday, October 01, 2007
Rushing le, real busy..
I hav to rush off le.. Eat in camp, rush back hm take some documents and then rush to meet San Fu ppl bah. Bye!
Posted at5:42 PM
These 2 weeks too many things happening.. Don hav time to blog... Thurs arranged my dad to go TTSH for a medical check, becos of the DPS la..need the medical report. But check oso gd, can kno my dad latest condition.
Sun too many things happened. I didnt go church, i don kno how to say abt it. The nite be4 was having SUPER LS, stomach was hurting donno like wat..arnd 3.30am then sleep.
Woke up arnd 8am, my mind was like die liao late for PA..i push myself to take my hp to sms whoever needed, but KNO WAT?!! I fell asleep again..
I woke up again at arnd 10 plus..my whole body was like very cold and having flu, maybe becos of the whether bah..Oh man.. My mind was like so confusing and compilcated, then alot of thinking and struggling lorx..
I actually thinking of going to centre de..but i was like thinking " forget it, i donno wat to say and to do if i go." So i rejected all calls tat day.
Many ppl called me like WW, WJ, Nat, Alan, LQ, Xue Yan, Serene...thk's! and i really donno wat to say.
I kno if i can don go church one day, there's will sure be 2nd time..no matter wat, i will turn up San Fu 2nite.
Above maybe R wat "reason" tat U all wan to kno bah.. Will be posting more things if i hav time, cos really too many things i hav to say out.
Thk's and take care.
Posted at4:49 PM
