Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Found my bro...
Suddenly recevied a call fr my 5th uncle, saying tat they hav found my 2nd bro. He's nw in Thailand being caught by the police over there...i was like S...O..SHOCK LA!I donno how he went there, and he's being caught becos of illegal entering..He hav NTH wif him LA! Nw i hav to find $450 to bring to the "wai jiao bu", so tat he got $$ to buy air-ticket and come back.Imagine ur 2nd bro nv go hm for 2 month plus, nw suddenly hear tis news?? For the 1st hr, i really down...i break down, faster went to the toilet, squard and cried loudly....I really cant imagine how he surivive these months and how he go Thailand...go there by wat?Forget it, like wat ZL said...at least nw he is found.Somemore i cant be too emo over things, i hav to be the one settling them...Though these 2 days having mop excierse, i still took the courage and requested to take leave 2mor and on fri.Msg Ang asked alot of ques, just told him facts...and he agreed to my leaves.Its all God's leading la...impossible for me to go thru these period.I hav to admited tat i hav been too much pride and egoness..I don wan to face the world, so i managed to conviced myself thru many things...I choose to act emotionally...and told myself tat i'm down.Always look within myself...I wat to say "sorry everyone...i hurt those who care for me, i let U all worry abt me. Really sorry."And of cos, sorry Lord....i nv even come be4 U, how would i expect to see U? See U in my life.I wan to thk ZL, WW, Mel, Sy, ZA, Hui Wenn, Marrisa-Wei Wen, Kimberley, Adrian and the most of all...CL.Sorry if i hav miss out anyone, but i need U all. Thk's!
Posted at11:03 AM
Friday, February 22, 2008
Update..
Many things happened tis week and during one day..Just wanna tel U all tat i found my camp pass, found it during a stand by bed inspection and its inside one of my book....Tel U all again abt the process of the inspection and i went Military Medical Insituition for specialist dentist be4 tat....Ppl treat me like a fool....i hav no confidence infront of anyone...Feeling of resting and having a quiet enviroment...Everything just seems to be so far, and JUST one step, i fall.
Posted at12:10 PM
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
lost..
Hais...at first lost 11B, nw lost camp pass... I nw oso donno wat to do.Let them kno, they will sure chop and kill me.. The 11B de $50 already being wave off becos of finance probs, nw...Sure hav punishment, i think...No matter wat i still must hav a camp pass la...book in and out they will check lorx..Cant run, pray tat God give me strenght to face.
Posted at9:58 PM
Hav not been doing well these 2 weeks...lost alot of things, and kena alot of things..health oso down.
Don think i need to list down wat bah..
Emo-ing and wanting to break down, but life hav to go on..
Person 1--- U say U got lots of things wan to tel me when U see me everytimes, but donno start fr where and wat to say......... i hav lots of struggles inside.
Person 2--- U hope i will go for the meeting, i kno go there willl give me gd, but wat if go there i just stunned/stone...ppl busy i donno wat to do...
Person 2, be4 U actually already hav ppl trying to encourage me to go le..but i told her i don hav ideas de, and i will feel real weird..
Hais...lots of thinking, so just wanna write them down..
Sometimes its just more than wan or don wan..U get it?
Posted at8:16 AM
Friday, February 01, 2008
be4 weekend...
Ok, just wanna update on some things be4 i go for my weekend break..Went to see SWAMI home doc wif mum and 3rd bro...he hav been hav 4 times of lung infections and fever for these 3 months..So doc was asking whether we want to sent him to TTSH when tis happened again, as their medications R limited..Doc even say if tis continue, my dad may die..Mum was worrying abt many things la...make me so fan.. Watever...next time just send him there, see how's the conditions and settle the money later...Next, my 2nd bro not hm yet...becos of tis my mum oso make me very fan..Wat can we do, he so old liao...even older than me la.....But indeed, when i think of my 2nd bro, i feel like crying off.....so don think abt it...Don think we will be going to relative hse on chinese new yr...Not tat i don wanna go, but my bros and mum don wanna go..Go sure like criminal like tat, ask alot of ques and most importantly, get scolded...But i miss my family... :( Sian...Lastly, mon taken leave to clean up my room.....hse....buy things...etc... Oso sleep, haha! =PTake care. =)
Posted at12:55 PM
