Saturday, February 28, 2009
Just wanna say smth
yest reached hm arnd 1am.i slept immediatly after i reaches hm, hahas.Woke up arnd 10 plus tis morning, but still real tired.2day actually planned to go hm immediatly after TQ de,but heart was thinking there's still things i can help, so i stayed.A sis actually wanna asked me to help washing things,but she look for other ppl after knowing i helped in making the drinks.Arnd 8 plus, many wanna go causeway.but i wanna go hm straight, so stayed while more to if there's anything to help.Somehow after lots of ppl hav left, 1 dear bro was trying to find ppl to help him make the table tennis table.Everyone hav left! He complained and kept saying only me and him cant get things done.i tried to talk him thru, he insisted more ppl R needed.Wenjie came later, tried talking to him oso.William came 2! Dear bro just hope we can hav team work,and tat those ppl who involved in the play get involve 2!He hope we can kno how to do oso.Anyway, will not go into details abt wat Wenjie & William told him.After tat, even Song Chun and some other leaders came over.They wanna help 2! but too many ppl le.So end up me, William, Song chun, Wenjie and tat dear bro doing.The others warned us abt the danger, hahas..Just wanna bring out tat no one is perfect,even leaders oso will weak de.At first who not full of complaining?Anyway, really got to sleep soon.2mor sure die man, hahas..
Posted at11:03 PM
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Don come to me, pls..
Negatives, I kno U wan to be my gd fren,but pls don come to me.I hate U!Too many voices in my mind,i''m too tired.
Posted at11:57 PM
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Understanding.
I perfer understanding than comparison.Everyone hav their own things to face, how U can compare which is more tragic and tiring??I'm sry if i'm a person who likes to express my feelings.
Posted at9:20 PM
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Lord, i need U.
Dear Lord,Maybe i'm real tired nw, after guard duty and church,but i wan to come to U Lord.Just came hm and mum drunk, said 2 bros fought.3rd bro stole 2nd bro hp and sell and things like tat.Wat she said actually not very important and i wont let them affects me.Lord, I'm still quite disturb tat i frogotten poly's DAE and ITE in-take. I actually forgotten! i feel so lost. Lot's of negatives thoughts in me, Lord. i feel so tiring in camp, i even told doc to help me excuse fr re-service.When she rejected me, i feel so depress.Even started to feel like not going to mission trip,cos my spiritual life cannot make it.BUT, i thank U, Lord.
Ur spirit in me keep reminding me not to do anything wrong,
if not i might gone worse.
U let me hav the strength to come to U,
and even revelation to me thru ur words.
Ephesians 1:17-19
17I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. 18I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, 19and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is like the working of his mighty strength,Its fr 2day's sermon and its NIV version.When i saw these verses, i just asked to kno Him better.
Tat my eyes be enlightened not to the world, but to His kingdom!
Like wat 1 Corinthians 15:19 said,
19If only for this life we have hope in Christ, we are to be pitied more than all men. i cant bring tis life to eternity, but i can bring eternity to tis life.
i realised tis is a test fr God.
i hold on to tis life too tightly, until myself cant breath.
Lord,
pls frogive wat i hav done wrong, pls don leave me.
Help me Lord, i wan to renew in U.
i wan to kno U more.
Job 1:21
21 and said: "Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away; may the name of the LORD be praised."
Posted at11:59 PM
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Bang!
I missed DAE (Direct Admission Exercise) for Poly.I missed April in-take for ITE.All becos too busy in camp?Really feel like banging the wall!Tired and sian..I don wan to be tie by tis world man..Romans 12:2 Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Posted at12:10 AM
Sunday, February 15, 2009
God's strength through whole day.
Yest was cleaning up church and writing letters for beloved "0203" until 5 plus then sleep.2day woke up arnd 9 by Wei Ling, then keep sleeping bag.Who knos, received a call fr mindef.Sian diao, hav to rush back camp for recall, but hav to rush back hm first la.Waited for a while but no cab, so took bus hm.Then wear uniform and new boots, took cab and reached camp at 1010.1010 considered 2nd hr le. 1st hr is fr 9 to 10. Sad.Anyway, the stupid recall hold us until 4 plus man.. =.=So sian and tired after tat, so took cab to church.Missed out alot in church 2day, and the mission trip meeting. :(We decided to eat veg wif rice, then i volunteered to buy spring chicken cos someone suggested it.i ran to WL mart "kou fu" and ordered spring chicken.who knos, need to wait for 20 mins. =.=Then sat down outside "kou fu" wait, somehow Ah soon uncle walked passed.
He said he came "kou fu" wif pastor they all and asked if wanna give me a trip.
Actually they going le lorx..then they sat down and drink coffee becos waiting for me.
Anyway, back to church...eat..eat...eat..
Discussed progs for mission trip...discussed progs for tis sat TQ.
2mor gonna reach camp at 6 plus to help set up for parade,
so leave church arnd 8 plus.
Realised i haven give valentines' gift to Char,
if don give 2day will hav to wait until next week le.
So decided to send to her hm,
somehow feel real happy giving out all my valentines gifts for 0203,
if U see wat i wrote in the letter U will kno why i giving out so happily liao...hahas..
Called Char to confirm, went to her hse and passed to her mum.
By then realise, Oo..no! I haven give Nat the gifts oso!
Decided to send to his hse 2! Cos don wanna push until later.
Walked fr Char's hse to MRT buy pins for 2mor parade,then walk to Nat's hse.On the way to his hse, called him, who knos he at his aunt hse.Said if wan, wait 30 mins for him. I agreed!Then walked arnd cwp, walk...walk..walk.. then sat down near MRT to wait for him.Who knos, fell asleep. He called me 40 mins later la!He said he reached hm le. i was like =.=Felt just too bad la, cant give out the gifts on time.And finally back hm.Got to go sleep liao, 2mor hav to wake up 4 plus.
Really thk God, thought a super tired day,but wif no 埋怨 and can actually go through the whole day.I hope the valentiens gifts for beloved "0203" does smth.Worn the new boots for whole day,even running abt, nw leg 起 abit 泡泡了。
Posted at11:20 PM
Saturday, February 07, 2009
Psy & Doc appt
Mon (020209) went to psychologise appt,actually very long time nv go le, cos of camp too much things then i kept pushing the appt.I told her wat happened ever since i saw her,exactly wat i wrote in my blog.She said she angry for me.Anyway, was thinking of moving out andlet my mum and bros receive professional help.i love my family alot, all the more cant let family affects me.No matters wat, i wan to go poly!Family will constantly hav smth happens de, ever since i'm young.She asked me "when was the last time i do smth i like or for myself"?i almost cried. Family, work, church?Real tiring these few weeks oso, maybe find 1 day go for a run bah...Additionally i hav my own health probs oso.Went to a kidney ultra sound scan 2day, CMI la..The nurse do the ultra sound scan hav to put some creams, use the machine and go arnd whereever hav to be scan.U kno, i scare of tickle and i really hold on tight to the bed la.Most funniest is tat the nurse asked me am i ok.i brust out and laugh la..hahas..U kno, many a times i go for any doc appt, i wish they will check until got probs.So tat they will think of a way to cure watever illness i hav mah..Hahas..tat's one of my thinking la.
Posted at1:35 AM
30th Jan, last fri helped ppl de last min de guard duty.
i don even hav to touch guard duties de lorx..
But too bad la, army just hav all sort of ppl.
Not only army bah...outside world oso like tat.
Some ppl go take excuses, then Chief Warrent Officer asked to
take out all the excuses and he see thru 1 by 1.
End up, all those agressively don wan kena, only 2 persons no need to do.
My out-going sgt who ORD on 11 Feb got pulled down to do 1 be he ORD,
in-coming sgt who just came a week hav to do consistently.
The moral is really low, i kena 12th(thur) and 21st(sat).
Like tat still nvm, on tat day(fri),
one of the "agressively don wan" got excuses until end of Feb,
but he got duty on tat day!
So the whole branch of them finding and trying to sell to ppl.
They cant find ppl and no one wanna do.
So my 2 Sirs after settling who should and can the duties,
still hav to help him to find someone cover his duties.
Actually be4 tat, they already sold to 1 MT line ppl,
But he suddenly fell sick so no choice.
Sirs even helped him by selling the duty up to $120,
but still, no one wan and many others got other duties le.
Time became very up-tight becos gurads hav to draw arms and report by 1730.
Everyone was like so stress.
After searching the whole camp and hav been asking for help,
we hav no choice but left our own ppl.
3 of us, out-going and in-coming sgts and me.out-going going ORD and he already sacrificed alot le.in-coming tat day b'day la, then he just came to our unit lehx..Be4 they could make a decisions, i sacrificed myself.The person who i going to help actually wanted to fight wif me.Wat i said is nth wrong, if not becos they 3 persons, things no need to come to these stage de.My 2 Sirs there, he oso wont dare do anything la.I oso can fight de, but i don wan only, wat's the point?Just cried, cried for the whole situations la.Most sian is last min do duty, and i nv do be4.Anyway, got promoted to Corporal First Class on 1st Feb.Like my in-coming sgt said, CFC is a recommanded rank,not some rank U can get as U goes by the yrs.
Posted at12:11 AM
