Friday, January 18, 2008
Rest??
Hav been feeling very tired these few days.. BUT, no not going to give up tis time tis yr.Hais...dealing wif insurances and dad's things. Though i "2" "0" tis yr, many things still cant do and cant make decisions. Sianz...so troublesome.Received calls fr SWAMI HOME saying tat the doc wanted to meet me to discuss abt my dad's long term plan/care, as U kno my dad's conditions hav been "like tat".Only "2" "0", so hav to ask my mum go tis sat oso...sort of contradicting...ha... Wat kind of long term plan/care would it be? Hopefully not change of HOME...else will be scary.I really like the saying of "life wont stay just like tat, U would either go up or go down".Ya..everything we decide to do; think or say affects our life. Sometimes things may be correct to do; think or say, but R they something "good"? Good to bless others and ourselves mah..If not, please don do tat.
Posted at11:06 AM
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
update of family..
Ok let's talk abt family...Father still the same la...can't talk; can't walk; bed bound and can't eat.Mother hav been borrowing money, seeing MP and wanting to sell the flat...Eldest bro still M.I.A, his letters can fill up a drawer lorx...then ppl keep coming to ask for him oso..2nd bro hav not been going hm for a week, U kno he can do weird things de la....donno where he spend his days outside man! Sleeping...eating...transporting...etc..Heard tat he has been begging and kneeing down at bus drivers when he take transports...and my mum say she gonna report police if he sat still not back.3rd bro always at hm watch tv and play games lorx..Btw...2nd and 3rd bro R jobless nw not becos they nv work but they R being fired. 2nd bro worked at KFC and 3rd bro as warehse assistant.Get fired becos of slow work...unable to concetrate in work...So nw only me and my mum working and get paid...HaHaHaHa...Me...thk's God, still in his blessing and indeed must be thankful of...I get chances to serve and to get involve in church, he nv forget me in his plan and most importantly he saved me in the past; in the present and will be once and 4ever. =D
Posted at10:26 AM
Friday, January 11, 2008
Everything i do is wrong?
Si
anz...do oso wrong, don do oso wrong.. Wat U wan me to do?Follow order do out wat i should, end up the other Msg say i wrong.. I can give a smile on my face, but hey watch wat U saying lorx..Everything do "shui shui", end up everything wrong and i'm being blamed... I don mind U kno..Prob is whereever i go i can no longer do things in gd manner..i can no longer achive anything anymore.. Its no longer the can do things de "Isaac, Long Xiang".Tis yr 20 liao...feeling like no where......Yup...just wanna write down my feelings, don worry.. Think a bit emo only la..
Posted at2:26 PM
Yesterday the whole squadron de com down..cant do much work since 11am. Down becos someone plug in external device and kena virus.CO (LTC) was real angry cos tis is the 2nd time.. Hav a super spot check 2day, all Msg, HQ RSM and CWO was standing at the gate.Thk God i stay in..lol.. Untidy uniform, boots and hair oso kena..Anyway......Yesterday cant do much work, then Msg Ang actually seat down and chit-chat wif us.. Ha...actually he's like a father to us, just tat his way of showing his care is different.He told me to think abt my life.. Not like others who hav ppl to support, hav skills, hav money...etc.. I hav support my family, no money, no skills, no studies...etc..Wat he said is rite la...just tat the way he talk and the way he bring out i don feel very gd lorx..HaHa!Like wat my psychologies said, many things to me is a gray area which i hav to face them one by one.. So of course, i choose to run.Ya...still hav just 1 yr and 3 months in the Army, like wat Msg Ang said. I really nv thought of wat to do after tat, cos all R gray areas.Eg. Study? I can go higher nitec, op for poly, private 'O', private poly...etc... But how i can hav the money to study, and i may need a lap top in poly.Work? Wat can i work as? Can i consistence on the job tat i work? I hav so many medical probs and doc appt, surely will not hav ppl want me lorx...like wat Msg Ang said.I agreed tat i hav alot of doc appt, so i spent almost half of the Army days MC or go doc appt.. So wat? Do U think i wan to?Actually told me to get a licence to secure..hmm...i oso donno how lehx..Anyway...just wanna share my thinking. ?_?
Posted at11:35 AM
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Humble..
I'm sure its nv easy for a guy to be humble and learnt...not everyone can take the way the others talk or expressing out. Communications is two way la...we hav to be sensitive to each others.
Sometimes i just keep quiet and follow, cos i kno i will get wrong and the person sure can do better than me. Agree? HaHa..
Of course i will speak out when there's a need or when i hav to..haha..
Just wanna share how i think and feel la..and oso to remind ALL to be seneitive to each others. HaHa!
The more U give, the more U get in return. Jia you. :)
Posted at10:00 AM
Friday, January 04, 2008
Passer by thought/feelings
Nw feeling better la...its Just passer by thoughts and feelings..Thank God..Last time i always give in and think emotionally, it will not be tat anymore.
Posted at4:32 PM
Really feel tired of doing wat's it should be..Man...i don like tis kind of struggleSo tired and don feel like moving...don feel like working and going anywhere la.But yet calls and works keep coming in to me while the others R either not in or sleeping.Dear God: Tis kind of things should not make me fall and i must not give in.. I kno U will hear my prayers, i wan to break thru.The feelings is like not going anywhere but to sleep or not move.Anyway, sorry ZL and WJ..i'm so impatient when U called in.Ya...donno wat to type anymore.
Posted at3:15 PM
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Overnite prayers...
OVERNITE PRAYERSCharis Centre
Many youths was sick, but they still came for the prayers..and Zong Sheng; Zhang Yang & Zhi An was here! =)
Zong Sheng actually was sick la..lol..so encouraging..
This is the first time Zhang Yang and Chen Qin prayed..
Quite alot of ppl stayed until the end of the session this time la..
I must really thank Pastor Chua, after preparing so many things at church camp he still hav to prepare messenges for our youth camp, and after tat still got overnite prayers la..thk's for all the powerpoint silde and messenges.
Posted at4:17 PM
YOUTH CAMP (Project BGR)Parsi Ris Costa Sand Resort
BGR stand for Boys Girls Relationship, but oso Building Godly Relationship!
We love, becos God love us first.
26th and 27th i can only book out after my work in camp. Its quite rush actually..
26th i got a appt at hougang, after tat went hm pack my things for youth camp..rush to bridge Rd buy light sticks, then take light sticks to chalet to find them.
When i reach there already 10pm la...so just passed them the light sticks and i hav to go liao..
Reached camp just nice 2355..haha!
27th nite cycling at Ubin..thk God Dec not much ppl in camp so 3 plus can go liao..i immedialty rush to Ubin and meet them.
Lol..reach there stunned lorx..suddenly asked me to dance 3 bear de dance. HaHaHa!
28th is fri, finally can really book out and join them le..but tat day oso got a different appt at hougang.
I reached Parsi Ris arnd 5 plus..actually thought of going rest/slack a bit be4 going to the chalet and join them but i saw someone look like Zong Lin waiting for the bus.
I walked over, who knos really him and he's wif Wei Ling buying some things.
Told them my plan, but they asked me why didnt i thought of faster go and join them...i was thinking, if i go there straight, i will sure be very tired and blur blur one lorx..
But in the end i still follwed them back la..
Involved in some acts and i hav to act and wear as a girl lorx...anyway, my acting was always terrible. Sorry to my group and thk's for giving me a chance to act.
We booked two BBQ pit and Wei Jie & i was in charge of setting up the fire..
When the fire R quite great set, its suddenly rainned heavily wif wind blowing..i was then -.-
I cant really accept it at first, but ok la..haha!
Then we changed to set up small pits outside the chalets using aluminue tray, we put wet newspaper below it...
Think its too hot and should put wet cloths bah..after the BBQ the newspaper get burn up and floor get heated.
Everything was really successful..though i didnt join the whole camp, but i kno God is in charge of all.
Thank you Wei Wen, Melissa, Charlene, Nat, Wei Jie, Zong Lin, Wei Ling, He Guo, Pastor Chua, Tuan Qi 2, Tuan Qi 3, Su En, Su Ya, Ling Yun and of course our God; Glory to U. =)
Posted at4:10 PM
Its really fun going to church camp fr 19th to 23rd of Dec, youth camp fr 26th to 30th of Dec and overnite prayers at 31th of Dec... We hav youth dance and some small group perfromances in the church camp..CHURCH CAMPHeld at Makota Hotel MalakaChurch camp first day only late..dumb.. But i really thk God tat i learnt things thru the hard way.I really thk God for William..its not easy to lead a group with elderly; youth and adult inside leix...For the amazing race, we hav quite a few difficulties..but everything end smoothly la..rather lost or win it really doesnt matter U kno. I wanna thk Hui Min Shi Mu, Jing Juan and Ling Jia for thinking for all the acts and props.The song wrote by Jian De is really encouraging for a breakthru life, thank you Jian De. =)The devotions was powerful oso, thank you Shi Feng. ;)Of course i must thk's all the leaders and progs organiser, not for U this camp will not be successful. =DFinally all glory R given to our God!
Posted at7:45 AM
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
church camp...
These R some photos after our youth dance.. 
Posted at8:41 PM
This is one of the view tat i hav taken fr the room
tat we stayed.
ZL put in quite alot of effort in writing out our youth
and small group de acts.
See, he eat and watch tv while ZL Write.. HaHa!
This is our precious pastor who is working always
The stage where many ppl put their effort in
The theme for the camp
And this is our PA operator
Posted at8:15 PM
And this is our PA operator