Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Wat a day.
2day a terrible day.mum called me 2pm plus saying 3rd bro wan $10 fr her to cut hair,
i asked her to accompany him to the shop and pay for him.
Working just back hm only 3rd bro using com,Hais..he always at hm can use com donno fr wat time to wat time.Like tat still nvm,he actually teased me sayiing " Wahahahas, so tired wor.."I was like so angry inside me,only give troubles, nv work, everyday only use com..etc..But i too tired, penny of thoughts then fell asleep. Lols...He saw me back hm faster shut off com then secretly went out.His pastor came look for him, found him downstair and talked wif him,but gave attitude again.Arnd 8pm plus mum called saying 3rd bro being caught glue sniff at market,went into a police car le and his church leaders oso called her.Cried on the phone, saying she very heart pain.Arnd 10pm, my terrible pain come again.Arnd 11pm, mum came back drunk wif her fren accompany.Keep talking to me, i cant talk much cos in pain mah..hais...Then she say i oso don wan her liao. =.=She actually asked everyone she kno whether she can commit suicide or not.She keeps talking abt money,
say 3rd bro nv give her $$ and ask me to give her $$ regularly. She oso say 3rd bro took her $10 nv go cut hair and think he go buy glues,
then she oso nv accompany him to the shop..hais..
Not possible wan me to look after so many ppl mah..
Argh...she's keep talking to me and asking me ques while i'm so unwell la.
Thought of not going work 2mor, but 2mor then see how bah,oso donno wat time can sleep wif the pain then waking up 4am 2mor.
Posted at11:05 PM
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Who do i live for?
Ya, who do i really live for?I so tired working for wat?Come back to think, i really nv do much things for myself be4.My spiritual life and how i take cares of myself.3rd bro still glue sniffing.He lied to me saying he need for meals.I gave him chances to prove himself, really donno wat he wan.Keep asking ppl for money, saying need coins to take transport?Maybe i'm too kind for him to cheat ya?Just nw came back hm caught him red-handed.Really hav to keep money properly and buy things for him to eat if he wans.Too tired just for working is WRONG ! I kno tat, hahas.I wanna live for God but i'm limited, cos i only relying on my own strength not God.Its been long time i sit down just for God le. :( But then after work reach hm le, so sian. Hahas..
Posted at9:53 PM
Friday, July 17, 2009
sick..
Yest was terrible,
sneezing, running nose, headache, coughing and whole body feverish whole day.
Prayed, and thk God able to ta han throughout work.
Brought a personal thermometer back hm,
took temperature and its 37.8.
After 7pm took again and its 38.2.
I was like ok, not a gd sign.
I 2mor still hav to go work de.
So decided to buy cold panadol to eat,
then go sleep next morning see how.
Well..no more fever!
But still got running nose, coughing, a bit sneezing and headache.
Hahas..
Anw...was quite happy to went KFC for breakfast wif 3rd bro.
Treat him, cos he no $ and ate 2 meal la..lol...
After tat went North Point.
Actually 3rd bro wan return library book de, but haven open.
Hahas..then see see at TS de CDs sales.
Brought 2 MJ de DVD for him.
Hahas..
Pray tat he go back to God.
Time to change blog song le...hahas. =X
Posted at6:16 PM
Saturday, July 11, 2009
I'm struggling..i'm juggling..
Thurs 3rd bro de pastor came to our hse at 11am plus.His pastor talked to him and asked him ques,the way he react was dancing, making weird sounds and singing gangster songs.He said he kno wat he is doing and he wan his own path.Tat time his frens tat stay in our hse oso wif us.I tel U, i can see tat his frens pretending only.Can see tat he pretend like gd guy infront of many ppl,act like nv sniff glue..etc..I can see one, i just keep quiet only lorx..hais..Yest, 3rd bro youth leader de father came and wanna bring him to police station to report.He hav been contacting me actually, hahas..Be4 he come, my bro and his frens keep wanting to borrow $$ fr me la.They wat need $$ for transport and for meals.I kno they wan for buying glues la..My 2nd bro came back then he faster go find him la!At 1st 2nd bro nv give but think he threaten him..hais...After tat the uncle called and asked me and my bro to wait at the coffee shop,wanna eat breakfast and talk to us.His fren then asked me for $$ saying he need $$ to eat,but i asked him to go down wif us then i treat him lorx..hahas.When at coffee shop the uncle warn them wif some words,end up tat fren ask me whether my mum got anyhow say things or not.He really gd at pretending la!Really thinking whether should call police when see them glue sniff not,so tat 3rd bro can try go jail and tat fren wont come again,but they sure hate me and more troubles gonna comes...hais..Poh kim borrow nokia charger fr my 3rd bro,then he went meet her at arnd 11pm.He actually brought a drink can down wif glue inside la.He kept sniffing then holding on and following Poh kim make her cant go hm.Poh kim called me 11 plus when i resting in company bus on the way back,saying he don let her go hm and keep talking weird stuffs asked me faster go and bring him back.I reached yishun arnd 1206am la..Then faster walked to blk 719 and pull him back.He kept sniffing the glue using the can and making weird sounds,then pants oso kept coming down.I kept pulling him but on the way back saw police car passes by,the police inside kept looking at us la...so scary.Pull here and there, finally reach hm arnd 12.40am.I packed my things, bathe le faster go sleep,cos gonna wake up arnd 4am for work.Then tis morning woke up saw him playing com and the fren brought another fren in the room tat i nv see be4 de, so noisy.4am U kno? Aiya, think he used com everyday whenever he wan de.Hais..somemore bills i pay.Then family like playing police and thieves like tat..Hav to hide our $$, cannot put too much $$ in pocket and lots of things la.
Posted at10:45 AM
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
AGAIN! unbelievable...
Tis morning when i woke up,saw my 3rd bro using com on facebook.He was saying he just came back fr locked up,then i guess he kena caught glue sniffing again.But weird, how he came back by himself without anyone bail him out??How he glue sniffing and kena caught again?? Hais..Alot of ques in my mind.If i nv accidentedly saw it, i will nv kno.In the afternoon, one of his frens sms me and told me yest he being locked up for glue sniffing again.Then i confirm he being locked up.Ques is how he got caught and who bail him out....hais...I asked tis fren help me ask him,cos i ask he surely wont tel me de.He keep on wanting to borrow money fr me,even his frens oso wan to borrow money fr me la!If U kno me well, i seldom say no to ppl de.But i hav to, he will only use the money to buy glue la...I do feel quite helpless, but its oso out of my control la.Just feel so sian and lonely sometimes, hahas..
Posted at8:28 PM
Sunday, July 05, 2009
News abt 3rd bro.
Was worrying abt 3rd bro, donno wat will happen to him at police station.His church ppl just called me,Saying tat he has just bail him out and its wif $2000 tis time.3rd bro hav to go back police station at 21st 10am to report.My 2nd bro oso funny la.I kno he's trying to help,but no point telling every relatives and his church pastor to come help.Hope he don create troubles la, hahas.
Posted at12:43 AM
Saturday, July 04, 2009
3rd bro
2day woke up real tired, but still make it to work.Mum called me when i'm on my way to church after work,saying 3rd bro kena caught and in Jurong police station.Early morning be4 i left hm, he's alr shouting in his room,mum said after i left he took his fren's bag..hp..etc and left 2!Heard fr mum and his frens saying he's been dancing downstair,police came and charge him wif glue sniffing and stealing.U kno, he's been caught once liao la..Then his church leader bail him out for $5000.Nw he's caught again,think $5000 gone and he might be jail.Feel like crying,donno should take a break fr work not. Hahas..Ya, its just so amazing tat i'm not down.Maybe down but not creating troubles. Hahas..Man, tired..gonna sleep early 2day and prepare for church 2mor.
Posted at9:27 PM
Friday, July 03, 2009
No Kidney stone??
Went hospital get scan results yest,Doc was saying tis is the best scan but it says no kidney stone at all.I was shocked, then i asked wat is tat then?He was talking abt my urine prob, but he knos i wan tis pain thingy settle first. Hahas..Then he say might be something to do wif intestine,so referred me to other dept but haven got the appt yet.They will calll me again for appt la.Yest was in quite a rush, cos 11.40 then reach TTSH.Company bus usually 1pm at yishun blk 131 there.But somehow i thought of asking the uncle can i wait at toa payoh,Ha..somehow made it..1.30pm must reach the pick up point.i arnd 1pm then finsihed everything wif payment,then then packet lunch cos nv eat. Hahas..After tat took mrt fr Novena to Toa payoh,then run to the pick up point lorx..At least i thk God tat i'm get to take company bus fr Toa payoh,else i sure late for work de. Hahas..Celebrated SY's b'day 12 mid nite at her hse, hahas..Sorry if i'm too tired.Overall i think its real great la ,hahas..
Posted at10:52 AM
Thursday, July 02, 2009
Tired..
Been very tired recently.Mon woke up arnd 7am to find social for help at TTSH, then worked fr 3 to 11pm....reach hm 12 plus le.Tues go for CT scan at 7am, woke up 5plus.Same thing worked fr 3 to 11pm and reach hm arnd 12.30.Wed i change shift wif ppl cos got church meeting,so arnd 4am hav to wake up.Tues i 1am plus then sleep la,end up wed cant wake up to work.Woke up at 8 plus, faster wash up, bathe and took a cab down.So worked fr 10am to 3pm and cab cost me $23 like tat,so only earn abt $10 plus....lols....2day going TTSh to see doc again, but its 11am de appt.Wonder can on time for work not, hahas..Then later in the nite gonna celebrate SY's birthday, hahas..Fri working fr 3 to 11pm, reach hm arnd 12.30.Next day gonna wake up at 4 again, cos sat working fr 7 to 3pm.I wonder wat's going on wif my 3rd bro,he hav been heavily addicted to gule sniffing.Been caught outside by police once and his church leader bail him out for $5000.Anyway, its i accidentedly saw his police letter and asked his church leader de.Else i wil nv kno.He got purple nail polish and hair purple oso.Yest been glue sniffing and dancing all day all wif musics,saying he cant stop dancing.Oso donno real or not la, maybe just wan attentions?His church leader say the next time see him glue sniffing, should report police and teach him a lesson.Most likely he will be jailed.Hais..mum oso keep calling me and his church leader,donno should report police not.I working so hard, he nv work still nvm but give troubles.
Posted at9:22 AM
