Thursday, September 25, 2008
Nth update
Wanting to blog, but nth to blog.These 2 weeks things hav been the same, its too normal....haven been any big overcoming in life, and i kno these cannot be continue.Lord, sorry..i need U. Temptation wont stop, so its always either one step forward or one step backward.i always remb tat life is a slope.Who don wanna a new life, but its how much U wan it to be.Thk God for letting me having 2day half day leave 2day, so tat i can join them for the malaysia trip.Yest then my leave approved la...so scary.i applied since last thurs be4 i went back for my mc, who knos system got probs.Then i tired 3 times and asked my sir to check and approve for 3 times, finally got it!!I'm sure tis trip will be a fruitfull trip, will be sharing joy wif previous drug addict and Pastor John is a gd pastor.Many a times, we let enviroment control us. I always remb a saying, when U cannot change the enviroment, change urself.At hm, work and change is the different me, i guess.I'm quite sure many ppl hav the same struggle as me, cos its common.Christianity is nv a religion to me, its a life style. The value of how U live.When things are common becos we just follow suit, we nv go and think.Hahas...correct me if i'm wrong.If U were to ask me whether i wish, hope, can or wan to change,i will say i wan to change, but i'm weak.Thk's for eveyone kind patient in me.Thk you Lord!
Posted at7:48 AM
Friday, September 12, 2008
Sian....
2day so sian...so emo...Donno why, maybe too tired.Encik say i nv work, i just walked out and bang the door.i can do my own things own time own target wat, he like forcing me to do.Maybe becos he's going post out then wan everything nicely done.When i got do work or when only i do work, he oso nv say anything la.
Not his fault la, just tat 2day too emo...too sian le...Quite easy hot-temper, don really wish to talk.If i really scold Encik bad words, maybe he oso cant do anything to me, cos i got depression. Even got anything, then too bad lorx...Maybe i'm gd, but no one is gd to be bullied de.
Alot of these thoughts, and feeling very sian.Maybe really too tired bah..Just wanna post, sorry.
Posted at12:43 PM
yest my tat body part was in great pain when ending work, then Encik asked me go up bunk rest and even asked someone bring 2 cup noodles to bunk for me.After they end work and booked out,i slowly and take my time to change and then rush to Indoor stadium.By the time i reach, already not pain.But 2day morning when eating breakfast, Encik asked my bunk mate abt my pain and such.Then think my bunk mate told him i went out bah...too bad lorx..He oso care for me la. Then a cook auntie say i look very "guai",Encik said if guai he wont hav heart attack le...Then he use the example of the "father" who cheated church money.He said all "fathers" look gd guy wat, but they actually go cheat ppl money.When he use tis example, i think he using the example to shoot me.Hais...forget, he will nv understand.He's actually a gd Encik, but maybe his work expectation R too high bah...Oso donno coming de Encik will be like wat...only kno he's a indian.Scare his character CMI, Hahas...
Posted at12:43 PM
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
jaw..
Erm..the body part pain again la..sad.Anyway, forgotten to tel U all abt my jaw.My left jaw somehow like dislocated, donno wat happened.Eating cannot use left jaw, bitting of foods are real hard.brushing teeths oso quite difficult.Ha..
Posted at3:06 PM
Flu...flu...flu...Haven recover fr flu and it got worse, nw having block nose la!These few days having block nose, hard to breath man...Hard to get into sleep cos hav breathing difficulties, so these few days breath using mouth, sad....all dusts oso breath in.i hate BLOCK NOSE! Hahas...Anyway, my tat hurting body part not hurt le, donno why oso.But must thk God and U all for prayers, hahas..Yup! Thk's Alvin! :DAs U kno, i'm 4th son, the youngest in the family.Its hard to communicate wif my 2nd bro man...no diret family members can.Can understand la..Eldest not here, so he hav the concept tat he's eldest nw.Watever he think is rite, he will go do it and don wan us(direct family) to care for him.As U kno, 3rd bro wont be working le...so 2nd bro will go and say him, then 3rd bro will fight wif 2nd bro.Hais...anyway, we nv share things among ourselves maybe dad oso like tat bah...Yest went hm to wash army clothes, then 2day early morning he woke wanting to wash his stuffs,he shouted why everytime he want to wash things, washing machine will hav clothes one.After hearing tat, i feel like walking over and ask him why he so many days at hm 2day happened to woke up early then wan to wash....But nvm, no use saying tat and he will sure get HOT! Hahas...Mum actually took a trash bag and put and washed clothes inside,walked 2wards me and told me tat she will hang my clothes out when she's back fr work.Mum actually did tat la..ha... I'm in a rush la...so nv do anything abt it.Come back to think i feeling unbalance.Its trash bag tat my mum put my washed clothes in, becos of him..hais..Nvm... Thk's God tat everything is fine, i can woke up in time and i'm still breathing well wif my BLOCK NOSE. LOLs.. xD
Posted at11:40 AM
Monday, September 08, 2008
Mum cried.
Fri nite after i booked out, i met MaxX and Alan for supper...Almost finished eating, i stomachache so went to toilet.Then mum called and she cried loudly, she said my 2nd bro beat her and after tat i cant hear clearly le....cos she was crying and talking.So after i came out fr toilet, i quickly took a cab hm.Back hm, saw 2nd bro and he said smth weird,he asked me move out and stay at fren's hse after i'm out of army.i just ignored him, then my mum open her rm door saw me and cried loudly....i went into her rm and we chatted until 3am plus, i dropped my tears oso.i told her tat tis bro doesn't understand wat he's doing, cant blame him.She keep say tis bro unless, even her parents oso nv beat her be4 la.After lots of "an wei", she say she wan to sleep le..then i thought ok liao.Who knos, yest nite she came back drunk...so sian..Keep talking rubbish, wanna commit suicide and many more...She said 2nd bro use CDs to hit her and punch her.Then her hand oso in pain, saying plam no feelings and nerves R hurtings.Saw her kept hitting her left plam wif the other hand la....Wa Kao!So i asked her to take leave 2day and i will take leave to bring her to doc,but she don wan, she say take leave will deduct her pay....she no money to see doc and all tat. I told her not to worry abt money and tat's why i going to accompany her mah...She still refuse, then i bluff her tat i already took leave le,she say she wan to go and work lorx..Kao...i asked her, ur hand pain untill like tat still wan to go work?i donno how to help U lehx....wan to bring U to doc, U oso don wan.Hais..then she heck care and went to sleep.
Posted at8:36 AM
Friday, September 05, 2008
Tis week
Tues went to watch "money not enough 2" wif my mum, 3rd bro and a extra uncle.3Though its cheap, only $6.50, but i drop my tears again and again.The last part abt their mum, i kept dropping tears, non stop la!Then my mum beside asked why i watched movie until cry, DOTS..In the movie, their mum was so understanding...tat's why sometimes when U treat ppl too gd, they will not see and will take U for granted.Actually tat day on a struggle of do other things, end up decided go for movie wif mum and bro.An update abt my 3rd bro la..somehow he doesn't wan to work anymore, keep sleeping or be on his own.Maybe got go out anyday, but we donno. So pulled him go watched movie.Wondering why he don wan to work anymore oso...hais..I hope i can live in a church, hahas..Living in my hse R so negative, so hard to hav the will to continue living.Just some random thoughts la.These few days raining days.Health got weak....Flu...flu...flu..Flood...flood...flood...Pain...pain...pain...Flu still nvm...keep going to toilet and flood the next day i woke up still nvm...But, tat body part pain again...Man!Hard to walk arnd, hard to work.Quite pek chek abt tat pain, and no one will really understand how is it like.Not i hot-tempered, lazy or wat lehx..Though i'm in pain, but i still work and didnt complain lorx.Oso don really like camp ppl to kno tat i'm in pain la..hahas....donno why.Looking forward to church. ;)
Posted at11:07 AM
