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Monday, March 29, 2010

Zzzzzzzz

Been taking mc, searching for jobs and going for interviews until demoralizing man.

Really no moral in work, God please open a way for me.

Posted at7:39 PM

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Family...work..??

Yest back to work, so tired and a bit forget abt work le cos too many days mc.

I just focus on wat i hav to do, do finish jiu zhao!
Like trying to aviod the "2 sister".
Mon going ST Synthesis 2nd interview in the moring and Sing Post in the afternooon.
At 1st tried applying half day leave cos Sing Post interview was in the morning oso.
Ended up Supervisor secretly told me tat he cant approve my leave cos its quarter end and will be not fair for the others, just then Sing Post oso changed to afternoon so doesnt matter whether leave approve not.
Hav to take mc on mon again lorx..lols..

Acutally hav to go ping pong practice but end up cancel cos of some ppl cant make it.
Planned to watch some show and play some games then leave abt 1 hr for QT.

Mum back hm arnd 9pm.
She keeps talking abt hse, money, bro, dad..etc..
So sian sia, keeps saying we nv give her money....
Money not enough..she use those money not for her own but family..
Wan to change smaller hse cos cant afford...and lots more....

Feel so heavy one lehx...she keep throw probs and burdens to me.
I'm oso human and hav my own probs mah..
Tat's why i say, like no area is stable nw.
Hopefully can find a suitable job, settle down and work long bah..

Mum 1140 then finally stop talking and went to her room.
She will nv understand wat kinds of probs i'm facing eps at work.
Thk God 2day work nv face much difficulties.

Posted at11:08 PM

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Update.

1st to 7th hav been real busy wif work and almost everyday ot.
Worked everyday even sun and its seems meaningless without settle down on a job.
8th to 14th started quite heavy as my only buddy at work who can help me found a job and is leaving early next month.
He's been in company for 3 yrs plus and all these while most things he will cover me when i do wrong or wat, he oso encouraged me alot out of all those scolding and insulting fr the "2 sisters".
Nw tat he's leaving, i feel so so so very de no sense of security sia..Hais...
He has been not wanting to work ot then tis month oso end quarter then lots of work sia, then the phobia of getting scold of insult is there how to hav motivation to work?
Later do wrong again how? More work more scare will do wrong lehx..

15th to 21st hav been rejecting ot and leave office on time wif him and another girl.
Though back hm early but feel super sian.
2nd bro as usual and mum again drunk almost even day la !!
1st thing i do when reach hm is to switch on com, then will play C.S, watch some show and other things.
I hav no motivation to live la...
Failure in too many things.

No more dad, 3rd bro in prison then missing his presence at hm, cant find a prem job and settle down, still hav to continue study, hav quite a few health probs, owe quite a few debts and then 2nd bro and mum.
Totally draging myself to live only, whether at hm, work, outside or even church.
I hav to admit tat i don feel God in my life anymore.
Thought of buying a brand new purpose driven life to read, but does tat helps?
I don dare to die on my own, but i don think someone will kill me either.
Sometimes really ques my identity in tis family.
Or i should say i don wish to take up my identities and responsibilities?
Why not U try to be me for at least 1 yr?

20th (sat) went prison visit 3rd bro wif mum, his pastor, a church sis, his mentor and mentor wife.
Tis is the 2nd time i and my mum go visit my 3rd bro.
Since the 1st time i hav to provide my birth cert to confirm my identity as his bro, i haven been spending time searching for my birth cert....LOL...
Tis time round i even misplaced the visit card, late to meet pastor and even nv confirm the limit of ppl to go in.
Ended up only 3 ppl can go in, tat's my mum, 3rd bro mentor and me.
Then 3rd bro pastor and the church sis went back.
I feel so bad, can imagine how heavy is my responsibilities?

Current job is my 1st prem job lehx, of cos would hope to settle down and somemore pay wise not bad.

Just tat too many failure then everytime do wrong got scolded and insulted became phobia alr, then my tat buddy oso leaving.
Will see wether i can find suitable and similar pay or not, or maybe sign on as Army Logistic?
Else stay in tis company lorx..
See how bah...hais...

Then afternoon went church for gathering.
In CG we talked abt faith.
As i will continue attending church, hope life will be more better for me soon.

Mon and tues having 3 interviews, but only let close colleagues kno.
I asked my supervisor whether i can take leave on tues or not alr, but cos tis month is quarter month then too busy so not allow.

Will take mc then, hahas !

Mon actually having a healthcare store keeper interview de, the TTSH HR say will send email to me but nv lehx..
yest went work as usual then when reached tampanies i called TTSH HR to confirm the interview.

They say its confirmed la, i was like a bit unprepared.
Was thnking how to tel my supervisor abt me taking 2 days mc.
I smsed him tat i'm not feeling and will see doc later, he didnt ask other things and said Take cares tel him how many days mc again.
Went to the interview, its store-keeper a physically fit person they looking for.
Asked me whether can carry arnd 30kg of cartons daily not, and its lot of cartons. =.=
I told them i cant, then end of interview.
After tat went yishun polyclinic see doc for mc.
Somehow got a terrible back pain after i woke up, then the doc say might be a spain and hopefully just muscles not bones.
Ended up don hav to think of any lies or reasons to get 2 day mc, haha! Thk God!

2day woke up 8.30am then went Kallang interview and its went quite well.

After tat reached hm arnd 12 plus.
Arnd 2pm went Seletar there de ST Aerospace for interview, donno how. Hahas!
Then ST Kinetic called me for interview on thurs afternoon, their job offer sound interesting to me lehx..
BUt i alr taken 2 days mc then thurs donno how sia.
Feel very stuck.
Like cant go any other interview until April le..
Then it seems hard to get a new job be4 mission trip, i'm quite sure they will re-consider after telling them i going mission trip fr 8th to 13th April. =.=
Zzzzzz.......

Should i try find a way to go for thurs interview or reject it?
Aiyoyo..
A bit back to sian-ness again sia, don feel like facing so many stupid things.

Posted at11:03 PM

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Missing In Action.

Will be MIA, anything find me thru hp, msn or facebook bah.

Posted at9:49 PM

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